be
to bring the will of the children into accordance with his own
will。 And this he can only do by an abnegation of his personal
self； and an application of a system of laws； for the purpose of
achieving a certain calculable result； the imparting of certain
knowledge。 Whereas Ursula thought she was going to bee the
first wise teacher by making the whole business personal； and
using no pulsion。 She believed entirely in her own
personality。
So that she was in a very deep mess。 In the first place she
was offering to a class a relationship which only one or two of
the children were sensitive enough to appreciate； so that the
mass were left outsiders； therefore against her。 Secondly； she
was placing herself in passive antagonism to the one fixed
authority of Mr。 Harby； so that the scholars could more safely
harry her。 She did not know； but her instinct gradually warned
her。 She was tortured by the voice of Mr。 Brunt。 On it went；
jarring； harsh； full of hate； but so monotonous； it nearly drove
her mad： always the same set； harsh monotony。 The man was bee
a mechanism working on and on and on。 But the personal man was
in subdued friction all the time。 It was horrible……all
hate！ Must she be like this？ She could feel the ghastly
necessity。 She must bee the same……put away the personal
self； bee an instrument； an abstraction； working upon a
certain material； the class； to achieve a set purpose of making
them know so much each day。 And she could not submit。 Yet
gradually she felt the invincible iron closing upon her。 The sun
was being blocked out。 Often when she went out at playtime and
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