already as good as put your hand to the plough： you are too consistent to withdraw it。 You have but one end to keep in view—how the work you have undertaken can best be done。 Simplify your plicated interests； feelings； thoughts； wishes； aims； merge all considerations in one purpose： that of fulfilling with effect— with power—the mission of your great Master。 To do so； you must have a coadjutor： not a brother—that is a loose tie—but a husband。 I； too； do not want a sister： a sister might any day be taken from me。 I want a wife： the sole helpmeet I can influence efficiently in life； and retain absolutely till death。”
I shuddered as he spoke： I felt hi