did。 Brown is a good sort of Man—he did not know he was doing me to death by inches。 I feel the effect of every one of those hours in my side now； and for that cause； though he has done me many services； though I know his love and friendship for me； though at this moment I should be without pence were it not for his assistance； I will never see or speak to him until we are both old men； if we are to be。 I will resent my heart having been made a football。 You will call this madness。 I have heard you say that it was not unpleasant to wait a few years—you have amusements—your mind is away—you have not brooded over one idea as I have； and how should you？
You are to me an object intensely desireable—the air I breathe in a room empty of you is unhealthy。 I am not the same to you—no—you can wait—you have a thousand activities—you can be happy without me。 Any party； any thing to fill up the day has been enough。
How have you passed this month？ Who have you smiled with？All this may seem savage in me。 You do not feel as I do—you do not know what it is to love—one day you may—your time is not e。
Ask yourself how many unhappy hours Keats has caused you in Loneliness。 For myself I have been a Martyr the whole time； and for this reason I speak； the confession is forced from me by the torture。
I appeal to you by the blood of that Christ you believe in： Do not write to me if you have done anything this month which it would have pained me to have seen。 You may have altered— if you have not—if you still behave in dancing rooms and others societies as I have seen you—I do not want to live—if you have done so I wish this ing night may be my last。
I cannot live without you； and not only you but chaste you； virtuous you。 The Sun rises and sets； the day passe